Hi all, its Jenica! I am loving the journey we have started together and praying that with each new post, God will continue to do something profound and unifying within us.
Now let’s have an honest moment...I have had over 4 drafts of this one post written LOL. I would write, know in my spirit that was not the direction that I needed to go, write some more, get really frustrated and then finally open a fresh word document and start over. The most ironic part is that I have wanted to write about this specific topic for weeks. So here we go, the last and final draft.
I am a routine fanatic. I love routines because they give me comfort and such a sense of control that I am usually unwilling to let go of. That control part was the missing piece that I wasn’t touching in the other drafts. As much as I say I love routines, I love control 100 times more. Routines in and of themselves are great for us in the culture we live in as they allow us to wake up, work out, feed ourselves (+ the people in our lives), get work done, get the house cleaned and spend time with God. However routines coupled with control have this underlining stench of fear that attaches to everything we do.
Why do we have such a grip on control?!
Because we have such a grip on self. How do we let go of that grip? We deny self, we (clears throat and starts singing) “LET IT GOOOO”. That concept seems to contradict so much of what we have learned from our culture but I want to encourage you with God’s truth. A true denial of ourselves is not coming from a place of anger, shame or self hatred BUT from a place of actual love. It is a love for yourself, love for others and ultimately love for Jesus. It is taking a moment, stopping your world, evaluating the fact that in and of yourself you cannot produce light. So there is a need to look beyond yourself. You can choose to deny yourself because of how much you want health for your life, because of how much you love those around you and ultimately because of how much you love, trust and desire to know Jesus (if you are not there yet I am personally praying for you as you are reading this).
The reason why self-denial can release the grip of control and produce health in your routines and ultimately all places of our lives is because you are dropping the counterfeit love of self. With that decision you then have the ability to pick up and have your heart be aligned to true love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control. Your denial is making room for you to be filled with the fruit of the Spirit that we find in Galatians 5:22-23.
So where does that lead us with routines? Great question!
It leaves us right at the spot of organizing your life not out of fear but out of freedom. Taking time each day to make sure you are eating the most important fruit – the fruit of the spirit – and allowing God to define what your routines should look like for that day. You can give up on the need for your routines to bring comfort, and know that God promises to be your comfort. You can desire health not the perfect gym body. You can desire Jesus for your children and not to be the “perfect” mom. You can let go of what you thought loving yourself, loving your family and loving God looks like and find out what it actually looks like. I want to leave you with this last scripture to see with a fresh new perspective:
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.” Matthew 16:24-25
God is enthralled by you, dear one!